Finished If He Had Been With Me by Laura Nowlin. I received a copy from the publisher on Netgalley.
Summary (from Goodreads):
“Throughout their whole childhood, Finn and Autumn were inseparable—they finished each other’s sentences, they knew just what to say when the other person was hurting. But one incident in middle school puts them in separate social worlds come high school, and Autumn has been happily dating James for the last 2 years. But she’s always wondered what if…
The night she’s about to get the answer is also one of terrible tragedy.”
Oh, you guys, this book got me in the feelings.
From the prologue, we know that this will not be a happy story. I received fair warning from the first few pages and yet I spent the entire book hoping that somehow it would end up differently and that things would work out.
The interesting thing about this book—and it worked in The Philadelphia Story, too—is that for most of the book, Autumn is dating a guy named Jamie. And he’s a really cool guy, the kind of person that you’d be happy for your daughter to date. So I spent the bulk of the book rooting for Autumn and Jamie. And yet, it’s also obvious that Autumn and Finn are meant for each other. It’s almost as much of a given as gravity.
I love that, incidentally. I love that I can adore one couple and then something happens and my allegiance completely switches to another couple.
And this is one of the best love stories I’ve ever read and it proves so well that sad things can also be beautiful (which, as it happens, is an argument between Autumn and Jamie in the novel).
Highly recommended, but be aware that you’re going to want tissues. Tissues, plural.